Bring on the Rain

I went to the Wednesday evening service at my church tonight. The sermon that the pastor preached tonight spoke to the innermost parts of my heart. My heart overflows. He shared with us this verse and it only shows how much God understands my heart and my longings.

"I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth." 3 John 1:4.

I kept trying to hold back my tears during the service. It was a revelation and my heart was so filled. I realized that my greatest passion in my life are my two boys, Landon and Brady. I have never experienced this volume and depth of love for anything else in my life. I absolutely love and adore my beautiful boys. I am in tears as I write this.

God, maybe being a wife wasn't something I was destined for. Maybe not now, or maybe never. And that's okay. You destined me to become a mother. Landon and Brady were meant to be. You chose me to be their mother and that is the greatest role that anyone can have on Earth. I am SO blessed! I want to invest ALL I have in them. And I will.

When I think about my life and what I would consider to be the greatest achievement of my life. I would say that there would be only one thing that would bring me so much joy, so much purpose and so much triumph and that is for Landon and Brady to walk in the truth. Oh, I'd give it all up. I'd give up all the fancy houses, all the fast cars, all the money in the world, all the college degrees and everything I ever had just for that.

And in making this commitment, I am literally throwing everything that is in my way, OUT. I am throwing out the television. I am throwing out the computer. I am throwing out anything that can be in the way of raising my kids. I am investing all the time I have, all the precious, precious time that I have to raise my boys. I am going to make the most out of the time that I have.

Like the story of the merchant from far away who found a great pearl. He sold everything he had to buy this one great pearl. God gave me two shining, brilliant, amazing pearls. To me, they are worth it all.

This is the greatest desire of my heart. I am weeping as I write this. Oh Lord, thank you for letting me see this opportunity and to feel this blazing in my heart. When you speak to me Lord, my heart blazes with fire from above. Praise the Lord, God Almighty.

For the past month, I have been frantically searching for an affordable place to live. My financial situation is about to drop significantly this August and I have been downsizing everything I possibly can. I am not letting myself be upset or angry that I have to lose this beautiful home. We have an amazing four bedroom house with a huge yard in a very friendly neighborhood. I just want to thank God for giving me and the kids a whole year to enjoy this blessing! I didn't deserve this beautiful home at all and God allowed me to enjoy this with my family.

When I found out about the income change, I started to worry heavily. I admit it is my biggest flaw. I worry the life out of myself. I spent an entire month applying to apartment after apartment. It was either too expensive, had a long waiting list or in a bad area. The closer the deadline was, the more frantic and stressed I became. Then, I became convicted by a sermon in church this last Sunday. I knew God was speaking to my heart. My Pastor preached this verse, :

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. " Matthew 6:33.


I realized that I needed to seek God first, the things above and his righteousness. My mind was on all the other things too much. I would spend every waking moment restlessly worrying about all the details of the things I had to deal with in my life. Well, that didn't leave much room for me to think about God. Do we just squeeze in our thoughts of God in the pile of stuff in our heads? It should be the other way around.

I prayed about this and decided to leave it all up to God and let him handle my worries for me. Almost immediately, I could feel the difference. The past several days have been peaceful in spite of the situation I was in. Just today, something miraculous happend! I turned in an application to a nice apartment and my mom turned it in the same time. We got approved within two hours and not only that, but the manager got us an apartment where we can live above and below each other! My mom will be living in the apartment upstairs while I am in the apartment downstairs! That is amazing! Landon was so excited when he saw the swimming pool and the little playground!

I was like.. "Wow, this doesn't just happen. Thank YOU God!"


And I also realized that I wasted all my time and energy worrying. Life is great when God is in control!!

Thank you God for this time to enjoy a home <3

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Thank you to Lisa for not letting any of us forget this song! We learned this song together on the Sequester this month. When I saw this again, God brought a song into my heart. I have been singing this all night and my kids love it! Sometimes we just need to WORSHIP him! Worshipping God revives our soul!

Often times we ask, "why does God allow bad things to happen?" The real question is, "why does God allow the good things to happen?" We are undeserving of these things but God is good to us!! Let us remember to thank him for all the things he has done for us!

I'VE GOT SO MUCH TO THANK HIM FOR

I was reading my Bible last night before bed and I absolutely LOVE the chapter of John. I found this beautiful verse that stood out to me and I fell in love with it.I memorized it over and over again until it was engraved in my heart ♥


"These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world." John 16:33


Everything that Jesus says sings to my heart. I feel hope, joy, peace and I find strength in him. This kind we cannot find anywhere else in the world.