I have been praying this week, harder than I ever have in my life. God has brought me to the point of total submission unto him. I didn't realize it before but now I realize that my heart was hardened about some things. The Lord has softened my heart and then he was able to lead me to what he wanted me to do for him.
The answer is clear to me and it is something beyond shocking for me. I just can't speak, eat or think about anything else but this. I did something that I never thought I would do yesterday. Today, I drove up in the mountains alone for hours and prayed.
I will write about what happened very soon, and all I ask right now is your prayers for God to bless the decision I made for him. I want his will done, not mine, and even if that means doing something that scares the heck out of me. Please pray about this situation I am facing.